Last month has been, quite frankly, crap. Why has it been crap? Because the best cat in the world went to kitty heaven.
No really, she was literally the best cat that ever existed.
I’d had her since I was nine years old.
That’s 21 glorious years of cat ownership wiped out with one quick trip to the vets (I have a natural aversion to ALL vets now, just so you know.)
For all the haters (who I’m reliably informed are undoubtedly “gonna hate”), she was most certainly not “just a cat”. She was my best friend, my companion and taught me an awful lot….a bit like Obi-Wan Kenobi in cat form.
Despite giving her a boys name, (she looked just like the cat from the Felix adverts and I was nine…go away), she was always there for me. Especially so when I suddenly lost my hearing, which is a lot more than I can say for some of the humans at that time in my life.
And when I was at home alone, she was my very own little kitty alerting device, as her fluffy head would twitch in the direction of everything she could her that I no longer could.
She had her own way of silently communicating with me, which meant she was incredibly easy to be around.
As she got older, it became apparent that she had lost her hearing too. We would both be startled by anyone approaching us from out of sight.
And neither of us were quite sure of the volume of our own voices anymore….
We were like two peas in a pod who grew up together, side by side and I’d like to think that maybe she moved on, because she thought I was ready to go it alone…even though it doesn’t quite feel that way yet.
I’m not sure if it’s because we were both deaf, because I’m a big ol’ softy or because I’m a barmy cat lady but what I do know is that there will always be a little Felix shaped hole in my heart.
I miss you kitten-face.
Teresa is a freelance film maker, photographer and full time cynic. At school, she was voted “Most likely to end up in a lunatic asylum”, a fate which has thus far been avoided. Her pet hates are telephones, intercoms and all living things.
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David
August 19, 2015
I am sorry to read about your grief. A very similar incident happened to me. And yes, it stays in our hearts for the rest of our lives. However, our cats would want us to be happy and to remember the wonderful and quality times spent together, and not to cry. It’s about the celebrations of live. They unique to us.
pahprint
August 19, 2015
My life as it is now would be incomplete without Sam-I-Am. Iam so sorry that you lost Felix.
Kethie
August 19, 2015
I have 6 cats and they are all unique. You’re so right when you describe a cat shaped hole in your life, that is exactly what they leave when they go 😞
susanbrace
August 19, 2015
What a lovely post, it made me cry. Possibly because I have a similar kitty-shaped hole in my heart and I am still an emotional basket case.
Sue
August 20, 2015
I’m so very sorry for your loss. I believe the loss of my first cat started my stress induced tinnitus and hearing loss. I miss her always. My sweet Misty. I hope someday we’ll be together.
Liz Ward
August 20, 2015
I’m so sorry. I’ve lost 4 cats in my life so far, it never gets easier – they’re all so different and special in their own ways. I miss them a lot but also feel very grateful to have known such wonderful personalities! It was only when we lost the last of my childhood cats that I felt the cat shaped hole you describe, even though I grieved for all of them. Having them all gone was unbearable, but it gets easier over time. Meeting our two current rescue cats helped so much – because they are so different and yet remind me of all the cats I’ve known before. Thinking of you.